Saturday, May 28, 2005
They are out!
Supposedly I woke up and said "so when are we going to start" and I repeated myself.. a lot. So I meticulously spent the day switching sides with the ice = no swelling. SWEET!!! Ate a medium frosty from Wendy's over the course of that day. The only freaky part of the whole thing, I felt FINE, like nothing had happened, and almost fainted from losing some blood and from a twinge of pain. Today I helped dry and nail clip 2 dogs. Vacuumed the living room after the flying fuzzballs, and played 9 holes of golf at Germantown for the first time. Pretty Damn good for the day after surgery. I'm darn proud of myself. Tomorrow looks like a busy day too :) pilates around 6 am, golf maybe 9 or 18 (haven't decided), the FedEx St. Jude classic for the final day, hmmm.. more anxious waiting for the response from the down town house (waiting for them to say what the heck will happen with the contract) and pray to gosh that the new find will not be bought before tues so we can have it! wouldn't that be the coolest birthday present!!
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Greedy.. No??
I am now totally motivated to get my butt up and going on the job hunt :) needless to say, the faith in our "downtown" house being finished, well at the moment hopefully it will be freakin started this year, ((totally blowing that out of proportion)but, that may not matter any more). I began looking in the Germantown area (where we have grown up and learned to love as well). Didn't take long for David and I to fall in love with something. Oops. It took, less than 15 min. Oops again. Never would have expected that. Sometimes things work out better in the long run and all I can say is hopefully this will work in our favor. ((I am crossing my fingers, and arms and toes)) We are totally in love with this one. Just have to justify that we can afford it, and also that we'll stay in it for A LOT longer time. [don't think that will be a problem]
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Lone
Neway, tonight is a bit of an adjustment. It's like I'm back to the days before I was married. My first night sleeping alone in almost a year. I am thanking God for our little pup. I don't know what I'd do without her. She will be my savior when we move into our new house. Being alone is going to be an adjustment. Besa is funny, she always checks for him when we come home separately. I fear this week is going to be a rude awakening for her. She'll likely drive me nutz wondering where he is. Bummer.. but they are VERY attached to each other. Cute though. She's chosen to leave the side of the bed open, just in case he decides to come home tonight. Love you Bear.
Bummers for the week. David won't be home till Friday, I am getting so much closer to having my wisdom teeth out (consultation on Tues) and I didn't get to go out with Charity tonight.. bummer! But I know something good will come out of the week.
Sunday, May 01, 2005
Home.
All in all, it is truly wonderful. I am yearning to find something to make me feel useful. I'm anxious and nervous about feeling out of place since David leaves to start the official travel part of his job next week. I really don't know what I'm going to do with myself. I'm a scardy cat about looking for a job because I always talk myself out of stuff since I think I'm not smart enough to do it or that I just won't be able to hack it. (being yelled at if a manager, destroying someone's computer if I kept working at Apple and aspired to do more) I really need to take a lesson at SUCKING it UP, and just step forward to try. Sigh. Things will start to fall into place, but being jumbled at the moment is an uneasy feeling. I just don't even know how to begin since I've never really recognized what drives my happiness. I feel so superficial too often :( it's a downer. What would truly make me happy in life? What do you think, and what do you know that I don't? I have an incredible husband, who has given me the opportunity to do whatever I would like to do, and I'm stumped. I've run down a lot of possibilities, but I'm always thinking what am I missing. Go figure.
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Another day
It's going to be a whirlwind week. I've sold our beautiful whale of a TV. I admit I'm going to miss it a lot.. Hey wasn't that TV one of the reasons we decided to ditch the fireplace at our new house.. Oh well. We are shipping a car and then will be without our stuff for the rest of that day that the movers pack us up. It's going to be really freaking annoying night. No cable or internet. We are going to lose our minds. At that point we'll have the dog, an air mattress, some clothes, and our computer. Oh what fun. Eh, I said we go to bed around 6 and if we wake up at 3 in the morning.. Let's get going on the road. I know I'm nutz. I just realize it's going to be a "fun" night.
I am already getting nostalgic about the place, calling it "home" n stuff. Something that I never really did. I think I'm annoying the piss out of David for it too. I am anxious about just getting this damn drive out of the way. I dread it with a passion due to the nice accident we had on our first try going up here. (I'm mainly scared to death of the rain) I teased Besa today by asking her about going to see her "seester" [sister]. She knows something is up since I got her crate down and have been messing the house up royally.
I am now realizing how much I am going to miss the people and friends I have made up here. I'll just be spending all my time referring to "well in VA..." I know that's going to get old for some people. Ah, too bad.
The weather has been a pain lately, it's kept us from going to golf, and needless to say, David's been going nutz. I am ROTFLMAO about how I spent Friday arranging tubs in the BMW to know what goes where and what we have room for in the car on our trip down. Needless to say, that was thrown to the wind. After having a knock down drag out fight about having to cart our "electronics" with us in the car/having all the electronics dropped off to avoid having them being ruined from sitting in storage. The golf clubs are now NOT going on the truck and have become a priority item to have with us on the trip down. There goes the entire trunk! It's hilarious. But it will be nice when we finally get to Memphis. That first week will be like the spring break we didn't get last year. David will be able to stay and work from home for the first week, giving us time to settle in. Sigh, I can't imagine how these 4 months are going to go.. It's going to be REALLY interesting. My other agenda is to get my wisdom teeth out asap.. I WAIT WITH EXTREME EXCITEMENT! not. I'm scared to death like a little baby. I can't wait to have my own horror story! I know, stop with the pessimistic thoughts. On with a new day, and hopes for a better tomorrow.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
BoorrRinG
And I took my 1st, no 2nd step into a Tiffany's store. GOD those people have a rod stuck up their butt. I can't figure it out. I stood at a counter, 5 sales people were needless to say doing jack $h*t and not a person helped me for a good 5 minutes. Talk about what the heck. I decided to get my ring cleaned, which was the only redeeming part of the visit. (at least the people there are civilized) Maybe I'm just phobic of stuck-up, rich people. Something about that holier than thou attitude that is a complete turn off. I can only imagine what the guy's jaw did when David went in to get my ring in CA. "I want that one" then handing it price tag first to David. What a prick. Decision made, thank God for online catalogues! Ok.. I'll back off the rampage now.
And the countdown has begun till the move. Only 12 days left. Wow. I've been in VA for.. almost 10 months. Never would have thought I could do it. It was TOTALLY worth it. Scary beyond belief being away from everything I've ever known, but it's been a bonding/learning/growing up experience. Don't get me wrong, I have so much growing up to do. It's been a blessing to have had this time away with David. I think we are closer now than we have been in a really long time. It's going to be a bummer we are going to be pretty much back to that whole experience of being apart like we were before the wedding. But we've done it once, we can do it again. Needless to say, I'm getting scared that I am going to freak out when I am alone at home when our new house is built. It was bad enough when I house sat with for my parents. I was always afraid to come home alone. Hmmm don't like to think about that one... but at least we will have friends a street away. Guess I'm going to have to carry some mace, teach Besa to be an attack guard dog, and learn K-rA-TAE! Hieeee YA. I know you can see it now! WhAtever.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Tiger
Now after having prior experience with having my hair dyed you'd think I'd be a little more prepared for the outcome. Well I was, kinda. [I know what wonderful English ;)] So I did one of these little 2 step kit thingys, and I'm orange and skunked. Brunettes, and I'll clarify that with dark brunettes, should just flat out beware. I only tried to go to a lighter brown with highlights.. complete crappy experience. I tried to test it on a piece of my hair, but of course that gave me basically no results that I could judge from. So, balls to the wall and sucked it up. (the balls to the wall thing was easy b/c I obviously don't have 'em ) Eh, its not so bad to be a UT fan!! What the hell am I saying..Quick! Where's the blue dye??!! And after a week or so I know it will fade, it just happens to look like someone grabbed some chuncks of my hair and bleached them golden. It's only been a day so I'll give it some more time... ok times up... just kidding.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
At your request
Needless to say as most of you know, I have quite a bit more time on my hands for the moment. My time right now has been spent dedicating myself to getting everything lined up to move, YEAH, not. But it has been a learning experience nonetheless. I am, however, dissapointed in the abundance of tall tale tellers out there. To put it bluntly.. I'm ticked so many people feel so comfortable lying. Trying to get a straight answer from anyone is virtually impossible no matter what you do and now my blind trust is beginning to fade, which maybe a good thing, but its also put me in a position to be very gunshy about trusting anyone. [must be that I've been in a box so long, I've never realized what's out there].
Beyond the moving part (well not while my computer is away) I'm working on creating a new .Mac [html] site from scratch. It's coming along, but very slowly. So hopefully I will get a bit further in the passing weeks. I'm also waiting to install final cut express and very anxious to sink my teeth into some video again. My friend Steph from home has some projects she needs a boost and push on, and I am eager and willing to provide the support.
-RANDOM COMMENT- Today I got a pick-me-up hearing Better than Ezra on the radio. (What the heck) That's a rare occurance, and a strange one at that. It seems they may be releasing "A Lifetime" on their new album as a single. Radio jockey said this "new" song is coming out soon on their new album. Anyone who knows the band knows the damn song has been out for a LONG time. Guess BTE decided to take advantage of one of the "most requested songs" from their concent tours. Neway the song perked me up and got me into an I-going-home state of mind. Good place to be. _End of Randomness
So back to my progress. at the moment I'm going to fool with trying to set up a live streaming webcast. Something I know SQUAT about. SO it's going to be a fumbling experience. Interest lies with having a "nannycam" for the dog. It's also a possibility that I will be attempting to lend services to the people in the new subdivision (petsitter) and I think it might be fun to offer them a chance to see their 4legged friends while on vacation. Nothing like psycho-attached dog lovers :) takes one to know one. And if you are looking for anything other than dog streams, you may as well just give up now.
All-in-all the day was great. Got a chance to get spruced up and look a little more presentable, which these past 4 days has been a plesant change from my staple outfits of jeans and a black t-shirt. I just got too comfortable being sloppy.
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Bummed..
Thursday, October 14, 2004
A bit of thanks.
It was a pretty sorry day. I sat in Firestone for 2 freakin hours ( to get another tire for David's car). I worked on the place today. Started with the desk and pretty much ended with it :(. I really enjoy trying to get our apartment to look more like a home. Oh, I also took down one of Besa's pens so we'd have more room in our living room (for all the company we have coming). I moved around her other pen in our bedroom which gave poor David a little more room on his side of the bed.
Now for the thanks. I am soo blessed to have such a wonderful husband. You have a lot of time to think about things up here while you are stuck in bumper to bumper traffic. I have enjoyed having to drive him to work in the morning because we have a little more time to spend together.
For the little things, he puts the toilet seat down, EVERY TIME! I almost take it for granted since I have never really had to deal with anything other than that. But my gosh its nice. He is an incredible cook. He'll even help with dishes. He always knows when something is wrong and is willing to survive my awful mood swings EVERY time they come around. If we are in a fight.. as sad as it is.. he is always the first to attempt to make it up.
I really don't have any idea how to put to words what I was feeling today. The thoughts of having kids and telling them how wonderful it is to be in love, talking to girlfriends who are dating and looking for Mr. right. I can only pray for them that they find the same ultimate companionship, love, and entire package I have found in my own marriage. I cringe now to think that I tried to shake off that love. The true love David has always shown me. That love, unconditional love, is so extremely amazing. I can't imagine not having someone to share your life with. It's so amazing. They are always there for you, with you, know you more intimately than you may even know yourself sometimes. I look at people who get married after only knowing each other for a short while and am amazed. I couldn't do it. I can't imagine not having gone through a lot with someone you plan to spend the rest of your life with. It makes things sooo much less awkward. I've known David for 5 years. We are practically joined at the hip, and this too I would definitely not change. Its wonderful knowing you have someone to come home to, to share your day with, everything and anything because they are there and full love for you. It provides such comfort that you could never image or explain if you have never felt it before. When I was little I asked my mom how she knew dad was the one. Its again that thing you just can't explain, and some people spend their entire life trying to find that perfect person. Even when I talk about things being so tough and painful. I can't imagine my life without David. He is so amazing and wonderful to me. I may not show it nearly enough but God I am blessed to have someone who loves with EVERYTHING. Even when I was completely blinded by my own problems and desires, he stood there waiting, and continuing to love with open arms. He has always given with no strings attached. David I love you.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
RoLLerCoaSTeRs
I have decided.. well life sux. Things really look up, and you find out... it was just a stroke of luck pulling your leg. Up and down. I've had it. Why can't something good actually happen for us. I know I should have just shut my mouth and never said a word because as soon as I did everything fell through. I've never been so frustrated. I guess we just need to get back to slowly building happiness for ourselves and forget looking to events/other people to make me or us happy.
Monday, October 11, 2004
Zzz...
Just can't sleep (4 am), but that's ok, I'm not complaining. Yesterday was surprisingly a wonderful day. David and I didn't really do all that much, but things finally began to fall in our favor. We tried to take Besa to a dog park. Pretty cool! Unfortunately, I felt awful because she has to have a license to go, and I didn't know this till we were standing outside the fenced area (mind you with quite a few pups!) She was heartbroken, but I plan to fix that this week. Soon we will have another fun and relaxing activity that the entire family can enjoy (crossing our fingers to meet fellow dog lovers as well)! On a happier note. We were feeling, well very lonely. In a matter of 3 hours, one of my best friends Melissa called to ask to visit, my cousin who lives in D.C. called to invite us out for dinner and to see their new place (unfortunately for that same weekend but finally we have a contact hopefully we can get together with more often than our distant friends from Memphis), and one of David's good friends from home is a lot closer than we had ever imagined to coming to work here in Vienna. These opportunities have truly given us something to look forward to, as well as sparked a new light for me to get our place looking more like a home. Yeah!!! I can't wait to start fixing it up again. I had reached a lull and was stuck in a cleaning and not doing anything to settle the place in mode. Hopefully I'll have some creative and inexpensive ideas to make our second room a better addition to our little home. I am very excited and can't wait to start this new week with so many things to look forward to.
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Today...for lack of a better title
To start with, there really hasn't been much of today to talk about.
I am a complete bum. I woke up and took a shower. No sooner had David left for work, I was back on the couch sleeping with Besa. Well, not a bad thing, since I got some really nice sleep :) Unfortunately I slept through some good HBO movies. Eh they'll be on again, no doubt about it.
Like Tuesday, I spent the time while I was awake cleaning the house. I can't emphasize enough how much work it is (and we only have 2 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms, on the same freakin floor!) I have to give MAJOR props to women who are the cleaners of the house, work 40 hours a week, and come home and manage to cook as well. You are AMAZING, and I am sorry if no one has ever told you that before. I look at myself with only 2 real days off (not counting my usual Sunday off) and can't imagine why the hell I'd even want a house, especially when there would be little time to enjoy it if you have to spend days off keeping it straight. No fun, no fun at all.
I know after all my rambling I am about to talk about what I did today, a complete contradiction to all my whining about keeping the place straight. I went to check out a new dwelling, due to a postcard from the mail yesterday. Needless to say, pretty nice places, but not like Vienna. I think I may be in trouble. Too spoiled from the nice surroundings. Our little town is very similar to Germantown. (the place I will ALWAYS call my home) Vienna is a little very quaint town, a lot more packed in with shops than Germantown, but in every other aspect very similar. While work at Tyson's seems to only be a few blocks away it always takes 15+ minutes to arrive. One thing I did a great job taking advantage of at home. Pretty much no traffic to worry about so I was bad about waiting till the last minute to leave.
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Bittersweet day.
Bunch of swinging today... Major highs on the verge of major lows. I won't explain myself but I'll talk about one of the "lows" Today we officially signed the note to say we are not going to buy our condo. Well that makes me happy because we will have a lot more leeway to do fun things and have time together, rather than focusing on making payments, etc. But, I know now we will regret it. In a month we'll watch our place be bought for one and a half times the current asking price and know we could have made that money ourselves to help buy something for the future. But that keeps us from being tied to the ground of this condo. I love to look at places and am excited about considering other options (cross my fingers a condo may find its way to us) not likely but I can hope, maybe even a house... VERY LONG SHOT! :) but I am nostalgic due to the fact that I have never had a place of my own and I have really come to enjoy the the finer points of this place. Eh.. with one door closed.. you may find yourself in a tight little box, but remember even if there are no noticable doors.. someone had to put that box together thus the tape won't hold ya in forever and if you push hard enough you'll get out.
Mmm debates... Fuuun.
I am not one to step up to confrontation. When someone plans to talk to me about something they are steadfast about, go ahead, I'll nod and smile. I really shouldn't always take it , but I don't ever feel I know enough about a subject to be able to banter with someone. Especially when they choose to vent on me about something political. Geeze there are a lot of em up here. (political people I mean) But wait that comes with the territory, I'm almost in D.C. Can you imagine coming to work and on the board someone has written "have you registered to vote, Can you name the political leaders in your area"... sigh mercy. yes I have registered: its the first time in my life I feel I can finally make a conscious decision about my choice and back it as well. I think its time to exercise my right to democracy. On with the realization of the day: No matter what you do to gain information within an organization, its virtually impossible to get a consistent answer! Whatever happened to, or maybe there never was, consistency and continuity within an organization? Not to name names I am "red flagged" likely due to the fact I have just recently married. "No you are just fine in the computer, you were probably flagged due to they thought you were not a US citizen." WTF?? C'mmon people those answers are on two completely different hemispheres. At least when I give you the reason given to me by someone else within your organization, can't you back them up? Nope, guess not. Gotta make up your own stupid reason. Eh whatcha expect. Debates... eezz tearin' him up one side and down the other. Its a debate of two totally different generations. "Boy sit down and shut up" ... lol
Monday, October 04, 2004
Three Pumpkins
Besa In Coat
Full Coat Preview
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Church
#1 ... nodd... just don't know what to say. Kinda sorta like home.. just a little. Felt totally stared at but hey, its because we are new.
#2 My lord you have to give to have a church up here. Mortgage of 47K a month! Get out of town. I never really thought of having to pay to go to church before, but I know to have a place of worship even dream of surviving, you MUST give. I think I realize I can appreciate the free ride in the past, and I now need to prepare to give for the future.
#3 This congregation is stinkin lucky. Your people can actually sing, there are kids who play instruments ( nice one's at that ) for you and are very talented. (you could use some SERIOUS work with that handbell choir, they were pretty sorry!) the church has a sound engineer. Cmmon give me a break. You don't get that in Memphis! normally.
#4 Only here would you find a police officer directing traffic for a Catholic church. (as David pointed out) I thought I had died and gone to heaven thinking the Baptist population doesn't always have everything.
Finally, as a little side note
#6 David's comment: "not many people go to chuch around here" (in response the the filled parking garage) My response: It's cuz they are Catholic. If it were the same Baptist filled condo you would find down south, the lot would be a deserted wasteland, the entire day. (I must give them props) I know bad, bad, but I count myself in with 'em. It's not Christmas, Easter, Lent, a special holiday, so what do you expect. I am kidding, but they were WORSE than us for leaving chuch after the Eucharist. :) father's down south, count yourselves lucky more than half stick around!
God... it was good to be in your presence again. I missed you.
Clubs...
Think I might just get serious about this stupid sport. Well it's not stupid, so don't get offended. I just swore up and down I'd never get into golf of all sports.
Lesson number 1 : Never swear :)
but for the moment I'd take anything to get out of the condo and get my butt in shape, cuz I'm packing on the pounds like a Christmas turkey :( Gunna do something to fix that hopefully. I made sure to test 'em out today too. Did pretty well.
I forgot to mention, I not only have clubs, but I am fully outfitted too. New bag, cool putter, some Nike balls and a glove. Can't ask for much more. I am extremely lucky! David may even end up stealing the putter if I don't guard it :) I'll keep with the updates on how the practicing is going. Don't think I just woke up one day and wanted clubs.. it was only a partial impulse. David wanted a new driver and it was all downhill from there :) Just kidding. He bought one and we immediately went looking to play somewhere. BOGEYS you can eat my shorts. This driving range kicks your ass and that's why you are only a memory. So we've been there every night for the past 4 days. I'd played with David's clubs for 3 days, but was itching again to get a complete set of my own. Thanks for making that come true babe. Pretty nice story hu?
Random: Where'd the weekend go? Guess that comes with working retail. (even though I can't really complain when it only takes up 5 hours of my Saturday) Gave the dog a bath today... doesn't that sound boring. Yes I have no life. The after debate discussions/arguments/attacks/hype/ flat out b/s is driving me nutz. Guess it comes with the territory (D.C. and XM news radio)
Here's a funny/ironic story for ya. Actually it's just one that pissed me off.
Just a regular old night playing playstation (our favorite for the moment Tiger Woods '05) we've been pretty occupied by buying the new virtual gear and competing against each other in tournaments. Well, earlyish evening on Thurs night, we wanted to relax, so of course out came the controllers. On with the power. NOTHING, not a damn thing. "DISK READ ERROR"
What the hell? So I looked it up online. 3 hrs went buy trying to fix it. Come to find out we have a stupid warrenty on the darn thing. So in roughly 2-3 weeks we may receive a voucher to get a new PS2. Nice, the one time we actually have the darn thing covered, it's worth it. But not really. We like to play games... every night. Sooo that's just not good enough. Ok.. 2 days go by. I slip, and say "why don't we just play... oops sorry we can't. Alright, let's just buy a new one." off to get a new one at Best Buy. Well after searching the racks.. where the heck are they? X-Box is out but no PS2. Mmmkay. Ask the sales d00d. Come to find out, let me see if I got this right, the Sony plant that makes the "chip" for the PS2 (whatever that means) burned down, and the workers went on strike (or something of that nature) Sooo they were completely sold out. "So there is a run on them???" well we had a few yesterday but they are sold out again.. Ok, Target. NOPE, bare shelves too. What freakin luck! Bad luck that is.
Ok, venting has ceased. I'm out.