I have decided.. well life sux. Things really look up, and you find out... it was just a stroke of luck pulling your leg. Up and down. I've had it. Why can't something good actually happen for us. I know I should have just shut my mouth and never said a word because as soon as I did everything fell through. I've never been so frustrated. I guess we just need to get back to slowly building happiness for ourselves and forget looking to events/other people to make me or us happy.